Meredith Project is a healing place for millennials to find passion, purpose and direction. We have chosen to use our youngest son Julian’s middle name, “Meredith”, which means Guardian of the Sea, in honor of him and to set a framework for the purpose of this project.

On September 11, 2014 at age 24, Julian chose to end his life. He had been experiencing depression and had begun to use drugs to cover it. He was in a toxic relationship that did not serve either of them and in a state of depression, alcohol and drugs, made an irrevocable and tragic decision.

Julian was a master “ocean man.” He began to swim before he could walk. At age 3 he could dive to a depth of 30’ and be completely at home in his ocean surroundings. We had chosen Julian’s middle name for it’s meaning, knowing prior to his birth of his affinity for the oceans.

He grew up with his “Papa” building a beautiful traditional wooden ship to take our family sailing. During the course of that time, we lived part time in the San Juan Islands and on the island of Kauai. Needless to say, both of those spots nurtured his love of the ocean and allowed us to see deeper into his interesting psyche. Anytime we were near or on the ocean, we would have visits from whales and dolphins. Those cetaceans made it clear to us, that they were coming to see Julian. As a teen, Julian would call the whales.

One particular day, a whale swam into a small harbor where our was boat anchored. I phoned him to say come and see the whale…. he replied “Mom, I am on the beach with my friend and I called the whale”. In a conversation with one of his friends after his death, she mentioned that when they would take breaks from their job, which was near the ocean, they would go to the beach and he would call the dolphins… she told us they never failed to come.

We share this to encourage all of us to keep going deeper into our healing. We all have the capacity to heal when we open to the possibility. Understanding just how powerful our subconscious mind is, the 95% of ourself that we normally ignore, can create powerful change. This is especially important now as we are living in an age of great upheaval in our culture, causing greater opportunities for both healing and destruction. The confusion surrounding this time makes being emotionally literate ever more important.

Our new evolving life work is to nurture young ones in building life skills and healing the parts of themselves that hold them back or keep them in patterns that are not serving their growth.

As we remember our son, the joy he brought into our lives as well as the lessons on healing that are still present for us, we present this work in honor of Julian, whom we love and miss deeply.